I believe that Heavenly Father does not give us more than we can handle, however, life does. I also believe when life gives us more than we can handle, Heavenly Father sends angels to help us through it. Reach out to those angels because their arms are open, just has His arms are open.

In my dreams he is alive,
In my heart he still loves,
In my mind I talk to him,
And in my prayers I thank God for him.

My life is loneliness,
My heart, severed,
My mind is dazed,
And in my prayers I ask God for help.

I cannot look forward,
I only look back,
I remember days we shared,
And in my prayers I share my grief with God.

He listens to my prayers,
He helps and answers,
He knows my grief,
And daily, He is with the man I love.

Trip to St. George

St. George Temple

Katie & Anthony with Santa.
Had fun spending the weekend with these two.
Who snores????

Okay St. George is a long drive, but it is always worth it because it is warm
however there is no use going to St. George if it is snowy and cold!!!
EXCEPT,
it is worth the drive to see & hear Kaylene's mission report & to visit with LaRonzo & Jolene & their family. Welcome home Kaylene.

Convenience Store! ! !

Yes, you see it correctly.

An ice & pop machines located on the side of the road.

Is this really considered a convenience store?!?!

Remington's 3rd Birthday-November 2009

Look Who's 1

I made Talilah & her new doll matching tutu's...

Talilah

Thanksgiving 2009

Turkey, cranberries & pie...
Oh my

The little elves who came to help...

Thank you to the little elves, Talilah, Remington, Trekker, Adam & Athena for coming over and putting up and decorating the Christmas tree.

Yesterday, I began pulling out the Christmas and low and behold I had my own little cry fest. I am miss Joe so much and it is difficult to have to spend another Christmas alone without him. From his birthday in September until Christmas in December there are just too many anniversaries and holidays for me to handle. I wish I were braver or stronger or loved him less--anything so it didn't hurt so bad...

So a great big thank you to all of you who have listened and comforted me. Especially Patty, Amanda, Athena & Farrah. It's not that anyone person can do anything, but just knowing that someone is there caring about you and loving you somehow makes it easier.

All I want for Christmas is...

Today's Writing Prompt: Want

Complete this thought:
"All I want for Christmas* is..."

To spend an hour in his arms...

Today's Writing Prompt: Hug

Come up with a simile or metaphor for how you feel when you get a really good hug.

A good hug is like a blanket that warms you when you're cold,
It wraps you tight from head to toe,
And provides shelter from the elements and the world.

A good hug stabilizes your inner core
While strengthening who you are.
And good hug lets you know you are okay, loved and accepted.

A good hug reminds you that you are not traveling this journey alone,
It gives you the energy through love to carry on...

What do you Wish you Liked, but don't

This is an easy writing prompt----EXERCISE. I know that it may surprise you learn that I don't like to exercise, but then you look and me and know it's true. In my new house I have set up an exercise room, but it is not working--it only gets dusty in there. Just the thought of exercising is enough to make me cringe. Once I do it I am proud of myself, and I don't find it too bad, but it is that initial effort that I just don't have. I can quit smoking, drinking, coffee, and other bad habits, but I have yet to figure out a good way to begin the exercise habit. In fact there was one point in my life I even looked forward to exercising, but that is only a fleeting memory now...Hopes & dreams, maybe it will happen again...but then maybe not...

Six Word Saturday! Describe your life in six words.

We had joy
- we had fun
- we had seasons in the sun,
Then it rained
and it poured
& our seasons were all done.

(writing prompt from the One Minute Writer)

Throwing in the Towel

It is fascinating how many people say to me, "you are so strong." Strong Whatever; is there another option? Many of us do what we have to do when there are no other options. Everyone's life will take a turn or detour that we may never have imagined nor expected, these things are out of our control. When this happens we only have certain options, and this is when someone peeking into our world can wonder, contemplate and query, what they would do. Much of the time their preferred option would be the non-existent option of not participating, or avoiding the real issue by giving us credit that we are strong. We are not strong there are just no other options. Throwing in the towel falls into this category, an illusion, HOWEVER I have thrown in the towel, especially in the past five years, every time IT IS an option...

(Writing prompt from the blog: The One Minute Writer @ http://oneminutewriter.blogspot.com/)

Thoughts from the Widow Lott

I have learned 5 things since Joe died:
1-Some people with pray for you while other will prey on you.
2-It's all fun and games until someone calls an attorney.
3-Loneliness is worse in the dark.
4-Washcloths work better than tissues, but handkerchiefs are socially acceptable.
5-In our society, the right to drink supersedes everyone's right to be safe on the road.

5 years

It has been five years since Joe died.
I sure miss him.

I miss his laugh, his strong arms, his bald head, and his soft hair. I miss his bear hugs, his sense of humor and his jokes. I miss waking up next to him and falling asleep in his arms. I miss his walking across the floor with muddy shoes. I miss him calling me 400 times a day, and I miss his kisses goodbye. But most of all I miss living with him because everything was possible and not so scary when he was around.

I left one white rose on his headstone to represent our pure and eternal love.
I took the other white rose home, for the same reason.

Death may separate us, but it does not end our marriage nor does it end our love for each other. Our relationship continues on and even though he doesn't walk through the door, or call on the phone I know he is still around walking with me through life and helping me when he can. I know that he misses me and his family as much as we all miss him.

Not Feeling Well...

Sticks & stones
will break your bones,
and kidney stones
won't kill ya!!!

I got to babysit...

mommy took this Transformer to school...

so I got to babysit
Little Liliah Loo Loo...

and Batman!

Graduation

Yes, I graduated from the
Saratoga Springs Citizen's Academy.

October 29, 2009

Happy Anniversary--29 years today!

The first five years were amusing & necessary.
The next 5 years we worked hard to build our family.

The following 5, we "found our groove" & laughed allot.
Then, for five years we "sailed on through" facing everything together.

Finally, we frosted the cake with the final five; they were sweetest.
But, these past 5 have been the loneliest & the most difficult.

I miss you...

LouLoo

This picture was stolen off of facebook from Athena.

Ministering

I loved this article in the Ensign, and it made me think about ministering.
I encourage you to do the same:

In his personal ministry, President Monson has shown the difference between administering and ministering. Church members administer programs and ordinances, but they minister to individuals, loving them and coming to their relief. In reaching out to others, President Monson has emulated the Savior, who “came not to be ministered unto, but to minister” (Mark 10:45).

“Today there are hearts to gladden, there are deeds to be done—even precious souls to save,” President Monson has declared. “The sick, the weary, the hungry, the cold, the injured, the lonely, the aged, the wanderer, all cry out for our help.”

(“The Blessings of Ministering,” Ensign, Oct 2009, 34–37)

Congrat's to the Cummings family

Robert & Amanda
Wyatt & Hannah

Remington

He can have whatever he wants!

Stole this picture from Athena on Facebook

Trekker

What a cutie!!!

Stole this picture from Adam on FaceBook

New Found Pictures of Lott Family

Joe, Cindy, Ruby & LaRonzo

Joe, Cindy, Ruby & LaRonzo

LaMon & Helen

I believe these pictures were taken when Uncle Hal (Helen's husband) died.
I just barely found them on a memory card.

Get Well Wishes for Anthony

Hope those broken ribs start feeling better soon.
A big thank you to Katie for listening to him whine and for taking care of him.

Trial vs Blessing

Is the only difference between
a trial and a blessing
time?

D&C 98:3 ...and all things wherewith you have been afflicted shall work together for your good, and to my name’s glory, saith the Lord.

Don't worry about it

Go ahead & slam my thumb in the door,
I won't notice since my other four fingers are already in there...

Just a note

I just wanted to thank everyone who has been willing to help me when I have asked. Does anyone really understand or comprehend how difficult it is to ask for help when you are in a really bad situation. I have come to learn two things:

1. there are people you can count on
2. there are people you cannot count on

Thank you to those I can count on. The rest of you, I hope I'm there to help you and your loved when they need it, as much as you have helped me.

Joe's Birthday

We ended our day at Grandma and Pappy's house.

Giddy up horsey Matt

Grandma loaded us in the car and we went to Grandpa's favorite buffet.

On the way there we sang Lollipop, played the animal guessing game,

and talked about Kindergarten.

Bubbles at our Sleep Over

Trekker covered in bubbles

Matt, what a cutie

Grandma's jetted tub makes the best bubbles!

Matt's 5th Birthday

All I got was the ice cream bucket!!!

Birthday boy--don't know why grandma's camera is blurry

Matt blowing out his candles on his dinosaur cake.
Notice the Remister in the background left ready to blow---

Sunday Dinner

Jaxson can sleep through anything--
help--get cousin Athena away from his hair!

Do you like my headband, why don't you have one?

How did Anthony end up with the babies?