Pain

This is from Conference April 2011, and isn't it/ or is is ironic that I so needed this so soon after Conference.   "The Atonement Covers All Pain", by Kent F. Richard:

I have pondered about the purpose of pain. None of us is immune from experiencing pain. I have seen people cope with it very differently. Some turn away from God in anger, and others allow their suffering to bring them closer to God.

Like you, I have experienced pain myself. Pain is a gauge of the healing process. It often teaches us patience. Perhaps that is why we use the term patient in referring to the sick.

Elder Orson F. Whitney wrote: “No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. It ministers to our education, to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude, and humility. … It is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation, that we gain the education that we come here to acquire.” 

^{Here is the link to the whole talk:}   

^{http://lds.org/general-conference/2011/04/the-atonement-covers-all-pain?lang=eng}

Natasha needs your help

Here is a link for my family and friends to stay current on what is going on with Tasha and her family.  Please go to the blog that has been set up for her at:   http://cantkickthischick.blogspot.com/.

Good luck Tasha and family.  You are in our prayers and in our hearts.

Reality

It came in the mail.


I wasn't expecting it for another two months--but it's here staring me in the face.

May 10, 2011 my husbands killer gets out of prison.  According to our "judicial" system he has "paid" his debt to society.   Will he drink and drive again?








Here I sit pondering my reaction and I realize:
Forgiveness doesn't mean that I am not still angry. 
Forgiveness doesn't mean it still doesn't hurt every day.
Forgiveness doesn't mean that the tears don't regularly run freely.
Forgiveness doesn't mean that my heart is still broken in two.
Forgiveness doesn't mean that I miss his strong arms around me.
Forgiveness doesn't mean that I am not angry because my grand children don't know their grandpa.
Forgiveness doesn't mean that my husband's broken body doesn't still lie in the cemetery.

Forgiveness does mean that he is a son of Heavenly Father and because of our Savior's atoning sacrifice, he has the opportunity to be forgiven at the day of judgement.  Forgiveness means I will be standing there begging our Father and Savior to please forgive him and allow him his eternal progression, rather than the "eternal misery and gnashing of teeth." 

Forgiveness means that no matter the hurt, tears, broken heart, and anger, I feel for the pain he has caused me or my family,  I wish no ill or harm against him.  It means "all is well"  my brother.

Forgiveness means that I must rise against all hurt, pain and anger I feel and see that just like me he is a person who makes mistakes and deserves the atoning sacrifice of our Savior.

Forgiveness is like an onion, we deal with one layer at a time through our tears. 

So, officer I can explain

Off to get the truck inspected and registration renewed and this is the paper I am carrying in my truck, so if I get pulled over the officer can believe that I would never drive this beast without a reason.  How does this sound:

"So this is my proof that I am leaving home in thisDodge today so that I can go and get it inspected.  I am on my way to get the registration renewed and to get aninspection.  The reason I don’t have a “renewal”card is that I moved and the card never followed me despite my putting in the "change of address" at the post office and my filling out the "change of address" on my previous registration .  If you are reading this then you areprobably wondering why I am driving this stupid truck instead of my Beamer—thatis why it is past inspection and renewal—I would rather drive myBeamer!!!!  Have a nice day officer."

P.S. Vehicle registration and inspection were my husband's job.  So, are taxes.  Maybe the drunk who killed him should still have to take care of those two things for me.

What-ya-think????

Somedays are full of tears

There are some days that are just going to be filled with tears. 
Today is that kind of day.  
Tears for those who have recently completed their mission here on earth.
Tears for friends who are having to walk down difficult paths in this life.
And, tears for knowing that the Savior holds us in His hands when life is too painful.

Here's my heart and love to you and your families.